Its the thought that counts!

So my husband is pretty awesome and ive come to find that he listens to me alot more that i thought he did. One of the days that it was really cold and rainy i told him that one of the things i missed about living at home was that my mom would bring home potato cheese soup and corn bread! a couple weeks after that he told me "ill have a surprise for you when you get home!" So all day im pretty excited and i get home and hes bummed out that he couldnt do it that day. This happened a few more times before he was frustrated and said "well its not there anymore so i need to find one." Im confused already and ask him where? He didnt want to tell me because he would give it away! He finally told me that he went to find Marie Calanders to get me the soup, but its now a Carrows. He was not aware of the fact that he had to actually turn on that street and he would find it. Poor guy, but hes awesome for wanting to surprise me!! I have the best husband!!

Fearless ♥

"To me, “FEARLESS” is not the absence of fear. It’s not being completely unafraid. To me, FEARLESS is having fears. FEARLESS is having doubts. Lots of them. To me, FEARLESS is living in spite of those things that scare you to death. FEARLESS is falling madly in love again, even though you’ve been hurt before. FEARLESS is walking into your freshmen year of high school at fifteen. FEARLESS is getting back up and fighting for what you want over and over again… even though every time you’ve tried before, you’ve lost. It’s FEARLESS to have faith that someday things will change. FEARLESS is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you, even if you can’t breathe without them. I think it’s FEARLESS to fall for your best friend, even though he’s in love with someone else. And when someone apologizes to you enough times for things they’ll never stop doing, I think it’s FEARLESS to stop believing them. It’s FEARLESS to say “you’re NOT sorry”, and walk away. I think loving someone despite what people think is FEARLESS. I think allowing yourself to cry on the bathroom floor is FEARLESS. Letting go is FEARLESS. Then, moving on and being alright…That’sFEARLESS too. But no matter what love throws at you, you have to believe in it. You have to believe in love stories and prince charmings and happily ever after. That’s why I write these songs. Because I think love is FEARLESS." — Taylor Swift

I knew i liked her!

Recovery!

"It is not a sudden leap from sick to well. It is a slow, strange meander from sick to mostly well. The misconception that eating disorders are a medical disease in the traditional sense is not helpful here. There is no 'cure'. A pill will not fix it, though it may help. Ditto therapy, ditto food, ditto endless support from family and friends. You fix it yourself. It is the hardest thing that I have ever done, and I found myself stronger for doing it. Much stronger." — Marya Hornbacher 

Keep fighting recovery is possible. God pulled me out of that pit and he can pull you out too if you let him :) its worth every second of hard work and the relationship with Christ that comes out of it is worth every hard day in the world. While the authors quote above is right you have to do the work yourself but i couldnt have done it without HIM! He is my strength!

Lean on Me

Ive always been an independent person, usually deal with everything myself. Being married and having someone there for you 24/7 is kind of weird and amazing all at the same time. However it does take alot to let go and be vulnerable and let someone be there for you, when you just want to deal with it and solve it yourself. My husband is so amazingly patient and supportive its kind of surreal. He just listens and it there for me and gives me space when i need it. as scary as it is now i cant even imagine having to do everything on my own. Its so amazing to have someone always there for you. My favorite quote on marriage is "Being married is like having a colored television set, you never want to go back to black and white." Its so true, sometimes its scary, but amazing and i wouldn't want to go back for anything!

Our Little Monster

Ive Always been a cat person, and my husband...not so much! Knowing how much i loved cats and that mine had passed away before the wedding he promised we could get a cat after we were married. Im pretty sure he thought i would just forget about it, but i didnt, so when we got back from our honeymoon we got a nine week old kitten. She is the cutest thing and the first day she was so shy and just cuddled up to us. As the week went on she got bolder and bolder, and now she is crazy! I had forgoten how sharp kitten claws were!! She claws her way up everything including us, but my husband seems to love her. As the days went on we got less and less sleep because we would wake up to her clawing us so one night we put her scratching post and water in the bathroom with her kitty litter and she had a sleepover in the bathroom. No need to call PETA shes fine shes a cat! So now everytime i start talking about kids im reminded that we cant just simply lock a child in the bathroom when we dont feel like dealing with it. So i think ill enjoy getting to be a little selfish and spending all the time in the world with my hubby watching gossip girl. For now :)

A Reason, A Season, A Lifetime

Starting a new chapter in life really makes one think about all of the past ones, and the ones to come. I love the thought that there are three types of friendships, ones that are for a reason, ones that last a season, ones that last a lifetime. All of them are equally important and impact our lives for better or for worse. I believe God puts everyone in our lives for a reason, sometimes its to learn from them and to better yourself. Sometimes its to be a good friend to them and be there when they really need someone in their life. Sometimes God puts them their only for a season. A chapter in your life that you will always remember. Sometimes its just high school, or college, or a trial that your going through. Lastly a lifetime. Honestly sometimes these are the hardest, but the best. Someone you know will be there no matter what life brings or throws at you. You will fight with them its normal, but in the end they are still there no matter what. So bottom line cherish all of your friendships cause sometimes you don't know what kind it is until after the fact. I am so very blessed to have a few lifetime friendships including my husband who is stuck with me forever and i love him so very much for it!

Our Wedding

On July 31st, 2010 i married my best friend. The day was actually a blur and all i could care about was my husband. I spent 9 months planning, stressing, putting everything i had into our wedding and on the day of, walking down the aisle i could of cared less. I didn't care about the flowers or the cake or every single tiny detail that i had worked so hard on. All i cared about was the fact that i was standing beside the man i was going to spend my life with, the man God used to save my life, and that was the only thing that mattered. I loved our wedding it was one of the best days of my life and we were sooo extremely blessed. I wouldn't change it for anything, but i do know that while my wedding day and being a bride was magical and amazing its nothing compared to being married to the man of my dreams. We could have gotten married in our living room and i would be just as happy as i am right now in this moment knowing that i get to share my life with my very best friend.